Universal Discourse and Individuality

 The desire to absorb universal discourse. It's the main thing that kept me in engineering for so long. 


To absorb universal truths, to get away from my own personal preferences, from my own minority characteristics. To eradicate my idiosyncrasies as much as possible and acquire universal knowledge. 


Mastering universal reason as much as possible. Getting closer to the truth. To know the truth was the only purpose of my life, and I thought that scientific knowledge was the closest thing to a universally applicable form of truth.


I spent years stripping away my tastes, mastering universal knowledge and scientific logic, and my mind was shattered. I stopped studying engineering in graduate school and went through a period of not belonging anywhere (unemployed) and selling art before becoming an engineer. 


I think I'm at a point now where I'm reconciling my personal tendencies with my search for universal truths.


Even now, I'm not a fan of minor discourses like feminism and queerness. I don't find them interesting, and I'm not interested in female subjects. 


The only minor discourse I'm interested in is ambient discourse. Taste minority. Especially music taste.  


The people who fascinate me the most are the ghostly, ambiguous, female or male, listener bloggers who survive only on the internet and then disappear from the music scene.


Compared to these people who have disappeared into thin air, we are lucky to have artists who can relate to the visible group of women.




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