Musician and writing..

There seems to be a lot of people making good music these days.

There are also people who make good music in the Seoul scene. There are sensible people.

But the problem for me is that when I see their Twitter traces, I get really stressed out, and I lose interest in their music because of the traces in their "language".

I read that some people who are cool in music do it as a means of feminist activity, revenge (?) against male artists who traumatized them, and that made me lose interest in music. 

I wonder if music is just "revenge" for men... It may be, but to me, people who write such "articles" don't look cool no matter how good their music is. 

There were many people I felt victimized by (including feminine artists), but I controlled my consciousness so that it didn't become the center of my thoughts. Because I believe that victimization ultimately makes the "other" the subject of one's own life.

I'm definitely a much more "writing" sensitive type than the average musician. I'm more of a researcher than an artist.

The reason why I stopped listening to music for five years when I went back to school and studied engineering is because I was a type of person who valued studying, that is, acquiring knowledge and truth in "language." From the beginning, I had the ambition to master "all" the humanities and sciences (in language). Studying engineering was a means of acquiring comprehensive knowledge. After studying engineering for four years, I thought it was time to expand my horizons to the sciences and humanities, but as I became an employee (engineer), I lost the time to study due to lack of time, but I always thought that I could find the truth by digging into the world woven by the disciplines or "language".

In fact, I'm more like the type of person who doesn't make music because I enjoy thinking in language so much that I don't want to spend time with my senses.

But I think musicians in general are not very sensitive to "language". They don't write much and rarely blog. They don't have much of a desire to elaborate their thoughts with "language".  It's like they're just too sensual.

So I don't think it's very common for a musician like Roedelius to write such long texts and books in language. 

In addition, when I fangirl over older musicians, I find that these people are sensual, and their music is good, but their ideas and life are often wonderful... They lived in a time when the Internet was less developed, so they had to read a lot of books because the only medium for learning was books.

They write well. They don't do Twitter or social media. (Brian Ino has Twitter, but doesn't like any of the posts. He has 0 likes. How hard is it to "not" like something on the internet in this age of social media...)

I feel that fangirling over old people has raised the bar for what it means to be a musician.  I can't get rid of the feeling that I'm getting ruined.